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Hey again...
oo im getting quite speedy with these blogs!
I have broken up from school, and Lord Of The Flies went so great. it was so much fun and its so weird not spending a whole day on it - or even just little hours after school. All of the cast really made a good team - we became friends and we have all made new good friends in other years/grades!
Things like that really bring people together. Any organisation or club or drama club or anything... try it out. its fun and you expand your friendship at the same time.
It was pretty sad finishing but hi to everyone involved in Lord Of TheFlies!

Buttt now we can all relax. Summer holidays are here! Should be good weather... but you know... im not seeing too much of it! Hopefully Mexico will bring some sun :)

Yesterday, last day of school. but you know it wasnt work as all this week was practising for L-O-T-F but when it finished yesterday we had prize giving. Because im a boarder we did a dance... And we sang to, George (my friend) and I had to sing a line on our own. except... we completely mucked it up. We had only practised with the music twice so were totally not ready for our que... so ahh we missed it! and tried singing it off. completely embarressing but oh well! Hope it made everyone laugh :D

Monday new haircut time :) yay. needed it for a while. Then Tuesday, Wed and Thurs my friends and I have totally booked the 3 days for a 3- nighter-sleepover! Kate (one of my REALLY good friends) has left so all this summer all our friendship group are planning some serious good byes! Im not kidding... Kate, Emma and myself are going to Mexico to visit another friend... 2 weeks! so hopefully another chance for fun before Kate leaves to go to a full-time boarding school in Oxford! kidssss thats not even close to us, its about 2 hours away... which isn't too far but no more weekend adventures after school... so it was very sad yesterday...

Soo... i think i have covered most things except...
BBC phoned on wednesday for a phone interview... my nerves were completely a-scew (is that a word)?? but i answered the questions to my best ability and heyy if i don't get chosen for the next round... then im not right for it and i completely understand that :)

Now onto some...stuff...
Every day you read things like: "im short and curvy...etc" or "i like such and such" from celebrities... and when i read it i think: Am i guna be like that? or should i make myself like them? or ohhh boyy shes cut her hair into a different style... should i get it like that?
And in my mind deep back i think - Jess, be yourself. Your not guna be like that coz no-one iscompletely the same. everyone is different. Don't try and be them... but yet something still makes me go bleh i have to get it cut like that! Or something!
(they werejust examples)
But then... today... I had a big think. Im not gonna go by what other people think of me, or what other people think i can or can't do. Im going to do what i would like to do and believe in myself. Im my completely own person and i don't go by what people think of me. I am who i am and im lucky for it. Sure im shorter than most people or where glasses and people can tease me saying: "whatever... your just short :)..." and although they are only joking or sometimes serious i used to think... Oh... why am i like this? but now... im glad of who i am. Some people would love to have 2 legs...( yess some people only have one...) or etc.
So... guys even though that thought of be who you wanna be has always been somewhere in my mind its not till today that ive scurried into the depths and brought it out.
Now - im not trying to give y'all some crazzyy naggy annoying advice i just want people not to be discouraged by what people say.
I DEFINATELY do not think im "better than other people so im aloud to give tips" i just want to say my thoughs and feelings and what i've learnt in the years.
Sure, im still young so not as wise or great as other people around me but im still allowed to share...right?
And after all... this is... Blogger?? isnt it!! I mean, come on people, we're the 21st century lets let it go down in history. Let's make it the year where people can 'say what they want!' :D
Its fun once you get into it. and that what i wanted to say. :D

But 'alas' ... sure i've written a lot...
but just to keep you busy... im guna write more :D

When i go back to school... I share something in common with most kid in england my age. Its year 10, we start our GCSE course. Ive decided, to work super hard. set myself a goal and make something of my life.
Now, i say England because im not sure how the American system or any other school system works. so to be on the safe side - i just say England. :).
I've decided to "pull my socks up" since during a lord of theflies rehearsal my friend Emma.T read my palm - and i know, there is know proof to whether its true or not. But she said in my life, i could be rich but suffer from debt. This worried me. And kinda hit me in the face, sure ive thought about it, but ive always kicked it aside thinking i have many more years left to worry about my job. But then... When she said this... i suddenly thought... GCSE's... I want to work out, achieve the best in me and go even further than what people expect to me.
Lets call it 'my goal'...
i mean, in my life im hoping to be an actress. Have a future which ive always dreamed off. I want to think 'YAY I HAVE WORK TODAY' not 'man... i eish i had a day off'... because when i come across adults i see them moaning about there work. Arn't you supposed to choose what your future is guna be? therefore it should be something you enjoy? so ... Yes, im going to aspire to be an actress. This is my most challenging goal i would love to and want to accomplish. But, just incase i decided to have a backup. So thats why one of my goals for this year and the next is to work hard, stretch my knowledge and get good grades for a good backup.
So... Yes :).
Also, on top of those 2 goals, i want to get a good grade in my DanceGCSE. I want to progress my dancing skill and get better. Take everything i learn at Stagecoach in and improve my Acting, Singing and Dancing ability.

SO... Whoa... this post is long. I had a lot to say.
Please guys, this post was definately not a 'nag' or an 'advice' post. it was my feeling, my thoughts and my encouragement.

Have a lovely week.
Good luck with your goals. Good luck with everything.

Always.
Jess~